Family...

Family is a funny thing. I used to think that my family was really close. I have 3 brothers, now 3 sister in laws, 2 sister and 1 brother in law, and many nieces and nephews. There are six kids in my dad's family to. All but 1 of them have children. Since my mom died, almost 11 years ago, my immediate family have been drifting further and further apart. This past year or so I would say that no one even really cares if we see each other or not. People don't come to each others things and don't even bother to call. Since Grandma has passed the same thing seems to be holding true but only for Dad's kids. We are left out of things and just pretty much ignored. And I think I am the only one who really cares about that. Everyone else seems to take it as a matter of course. I am not sure why I can't. It actually makes me really sad and I miss everyone very much. Even the ones who don't like me. I am not sure how I resolve this within myself. I don't really see it changing within the family so I need to figure out a way to be ok with it and move on. I love them all very much so this is going to be hard but I have to do it. Because in all honesty the one being hurt is me and I am letting it continue. I guess I need to buck up and quit wearing my heart on my sleeve. I miss my mommy. :(