Phil and I are in such a bad place right now. I don't know how to fix it anymore and sometimes I am not sure I want to. We can't say anything to each other without being sarcastic or snippy. Emotionally, I am wiped.
Food wise I think I am doing okay. Took a peek at my scale this morning and it showed 215.8 which would be up .8 but my scale is usually off by 2 lbs with WW scale so that would put me down a bit. We shall see on Thursday.
I am so ready to be off. 2 more days and I have a 4 day weekend. I am ready. This job is stressing me out. I am so thankful to have it but I started out in the hole and I don't know if I can fix it all. I don't know if I can figure it out. I don't want to fail these people they are so nice but I am really stressed out about it all.
Gotta go
Karen
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Thursday, December 16, 2010
I just can't seem to do it.
Blog that is. I have lots of things to say. Ask anyone who knows me. But when it comes to putting it in this blog I can't seem to do it.
It has been a rough week. Last Thursday at WI I lost 8lbs. Go me!!! But then things started falling apart. Phil and I are in a rough patch right now and I wasn't very good at pulling my punches and really let him have it. The resentment has been building for a while and I didn't have a tight enough lock on my mouth. Add to that that we were suppose to have $566.00 deposited to our bank on the 15th and it still isn't there are we are $282.00 in the red it doesn't bode well. We are at least on speaking terms right now but it feels really shaky. Earlier this week he said he had had it and was moving out. What a miserable day. He has apologized for that but I think we are still going to try some marriage counseling. Just have to find the money for that.
All that to say that I think I did alright this week with WW. I wasn't tracking until Tuesday but I did go back and track everything I ate for the week and I don't think I forgot anything. My scale shows me up .2 and I could handle that. 8lbs was incredible so I am not expecting much just don't want it to be a couple lbs up. That is so discouraging. We shall see tonight.
Karen
It has been a rough week. Last Thursday at WI I lost 8lbs. Go me!!! But then things started falling apart. Phil and I are in a rough patch right now and I wasn't very good at pulling my punches and really let him have it. The resentment has been building for a while and I didn't have a tight enough lock on my mouth. Add to that that we were suppose to have $566.00 deposited to our bank on the 15th and it still isn't there are we are $282.00 in the red it doesn't bode well. We are at least on speaking terms right now but it feels really shaky. Earlier this week he said he had had it and was moving out. What a miserable day. He has apologized for that but I think we are still going to try some marriage counseling. Just have to find the money for that.
All that to say that I think I did alright this week with WW. I wasn't tracking until Tuesday but I did go back and track everything I ate for the week and I don't think I forgot anything. My scale shows me up .2 and I could handle that. 8lbs was incredible so I am not expecting much just don't want it to be a couple lbs up. That is so discouraging. We shall see tonight.
Karen
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I'm Back...
How many times can a person say that? I rejoined WW in September and did well and than we moved back to MO and fell apart again. So I let that go on for awhile and now have gone back. In time for a whole new program. This is my first week on it and I think I am going to like it although all my favorite go to foods went up in points. But I guess that really is the point. To get us off of all that processed crap. I rejoined Thursday and so far I have done as close to perfect as I will ever get. I really like the 49 weekly points. I even had a peanut butter sandwich last night. Something, I haven't done in forever.
Just trying to get my life under some kind of control. I have been feeling so bad and I know that alot of that stems from my weight. I want to get to a point that I do not think about it 23 hours a day. It seems to consume me. Either my weight or what I am going to eat.
Activity has been a bit of a challenge. I have started walking at the mall. I can only get 30 minutes in but I say that is a victory. We are getting the family a Wii for Christmas so I am hoping eventually I can get a Wii fit. I am also going to try to start blogging again. We have internet at home so I should be able to keep up on it. I am also working on positive thinking. I will do this, I will blog more, I will love my life.
Karen
Just trying to get my life under some kind of control. I have been feeling so bad and I know that alot of that stems from my weight. I want to get to a point that I do not think about it 23 hours a day. It seems to consume me. Either my weight or what I am going to eat.
Activity has been a bit of a challenge. I have started walking at the mall. I can only get 30 minutes in but I say that is a victory. We are getting the family a Wii for Christmas so I am hoping eventually I can get a Wii fit. I am also going to try to start blogging again. We have internet at home so I should be able to keep up on it. I am also working on positive thinking. I will do this, I will blog more, I will love my life.
Karen
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