I dont know what is wrong with me. I cant seem to get out of this funk. I hate how I feel and act when I am like this. Phil was gone last week and I just fell apart. Ate like a mad woman and no exercise. This week he was home but he is so pi$$ed at his boss that the week was not very enjoyable. I need to not let his mood affect mine but how do you do that when all you want is for him to want to be with you. It's a vicious cycle.
Last night he got a call from Macke. Good friend of his. Actually, the call came in at 1:00 a.m. He was in jail. DWI and needed Phil to go to his house and get money for bail. He could only trust Phil. Mind you this is 3 1/2 hours away from us. Luckily, Phil was off today so off he went. He finally calls me at 9:30 this morning and he was just leaving. Got him out of jail and he was going to work. Of course, he had no money to give Phil for gas. That really hurts in the finances department. Phil came through here about my lunch time and do you think he would meet me for lunch. Hell no, he was to tired. Drives 3 1/2 hours to help out his drunk ass friend but doesn't have a 1/2 hour to spend with me for lunch. Drives me insane. The only time he seems to have time for me is when he wants sex. I bet that doesn't happen tonight.
On a differnt note, I ordere this weight loss product called Sensa. Don't know if it will work but I feel like shit and I cant take it anymore.
Hoping to have a good weekend this weekend. 3 day week end. Concert at park, fireworks at the lake. Sunshine and Daisy are excited, cousin Joe may come to visit. We shall see.
Have a great 4th.
