Sadness

I am stuck in a state of sadness. I have more sad days than not sad days. Lately, I have not had any happy days. I am sad about the state of my marriage, sad about my weight, sad that my husband can’t or won’t find a job, sad that I am losing my faith, sad that my kids don’t seem to like or want to spend time with me, sad about my job, sad about my family, sad that I don’t have any friends, sad about finances, sad that we don’t own a house. That’s a lot of sad and I don’t know how to fix any of it.

These two should be reason enough to be happy. Thankfully, I don't believe they know how I am feeling. I work really hard at being the happy mom when I am home. I need to figure this out though. I wish I could afford to go to a doctor about this. But with one income and no insurance that isn't going to happen.