Tuesday, March 1, 2011
What to do...
I don't understand the relationship Phil and I have. We can be getting along wonderful and the next thing you know we are at each others throats. We are trying to get a new place out in the country. He told so many lies when he talked to this guy I could not even fill out the application because I dont know what he said. This drives me insane. I know that we all tell lies to some extent but I am not sure he knows how to tell the truth. He always is shading it. And this not getting a job. I hate it and sometimes I hate him. I try to overlook it. I try to be understanding. But it makes me so angry. And you would think he could help me at home. He will make supper a couple nights are do a load of towels and he acts like I should bow at his feet. Bullshit. This morning for example, he got up and dressed himself and helped Averi with her belt and took the girls to school. I on the other hand-got supper started (Salisbury steaks), folded two loads of clothes washed one, unloaded the dishwasher and put the breakfast dishes in, got the girls up and breakfast, fixed their hair, put clothes away, made my breakfast and lunch, got ready for work, made sure the girls brushed their teeth, got Sunshine's money for school. I am just tired of it and I can't get through him. He doesnt' even care. And I guess I am just going to have to grin and bear it. I almost can't stand to look at him some days. He sits on the couch all day or runs around with his buddies and doesn't even see that he could help me. And makes sure I understand it is all my fault. I am so pissed and gotta get passed it.