So angry

My husbands unemployment ran out two weeks ago. Even though I pay most of the bills it was a cushion that was always there. And sometimes I had to use it. We get back from vacation he got one check and blew it and than nothing. He sold some 4 wheelers and gave me 300 of that but that is it. And do you think he is looking for a job. The short answer to that would be no. But I can't say anything about it or be aggravated because then he is mad. I have never been very good at biting my tongue. I don't know what I am suppose to do. What happened to the taking care of me part. Why doesn't he feel like he needs to take care of us. Why didn't he feel the urgency to get a job. It has been 2 years. I got a job within a month of being laid off. Of course, I didn't screw around either. I started sending resumes right away. He has applied to 4 maybe 5 jobs in 2 years. 2 years. I feel like screaming I am so angry. Why does he do this to our family? How can he get away with it? I would feel so guilty yet he makes ME feel guilty. The one who has been working for the last 2 years. Even when he does have money he makes me feel so guilty about asking for it. Than has the gall to ask me where my money is. Lets see I pay for my phone, the electric, car insruance, rent, gas for my car, groceries for all of us, my phone, school lunches, registration, Aarons 2 payments, car. He pays for Dish, his phone, his gas, his cigars. Tell me where this is fair. Granted I was bringing in more money but only 600 a month more. And than I have to try and not being resentful.